Friday, 6 November 2015

My Motivation #1


In my last post I spoke about how being asked to leave my old job made me want to make a a change to my life and loose weight, another part of my motivation was looking down and seeing the monstrosity, my body had become. I've never been a particularly body positive person when it comes to my own and I am not happy being this way I don't like being fat and its not how I intend to spend my life.

Remember that Reebok advert "belly gunna get ya!" well that's how I was starting to feel, I felt like I have no control over my body and that my stomach was getting out of hand, it hurt carrying it around now I some of you may find the following grouse and I agree its not pretty but I feel I need to share this to show just how bad things have gotten....

I know right its like me and the Reebok advert could be belly twins. I am sorry if this offends anyone but it will never offend anyone more than it does my self. This is my motivation to remind me of where I been and where I don't want to be again.
It a long journey but I hope that one day I will have a body I can be proud to show off, one that doesnt resemble an 1990's advert...

Tash x

Life Update #1

Early in 2015 I started working for a company and although it was only a temporary position I was confident that it would last, however whilst in training I was having back pain from the chairs as they weren't supportive, I was unable to get the lumbar support I needed, so I asked for a workspace assessment to address the matter and try and get a better chair. I remember looking on the company intranet at alternative chairs and finding one which looked suitable and had a capacity over 23 stone, I joked about this with one of my co-workers saying that as I was overweight that would be a better option for me. A day later I was whisked to one side by my line manager to do the assessment, she said as id mentioned my weight being over 23 stone that meant I was a health and safety risk, I could not be in work because I was basically too fat for the chairs. I felt embarrassed and humiliated. I couldn't believe It. I was escorted off the property and told they would contact me regarding a new start date once they had a suitable chair, which apparently would take 6-8 weeks to be delivered. I was so shocked I couldn't believe it was happening and that I had been dismissed from work purely because I'm overweight, nothing else just because I'm fat!!
My weight has not effected my ability to work previously nor will it in the future, but that's not the point, I'm not quite sure what the point is. Its disgusting that a large company can do that to a person. It has though helped me make the conscious decision to do something about my weight, and I shortly after joined slimming world and started a new job. I was kind of worried that would my weight be an issue it wasn't, if anything my new colleagues have been super supportive and have helped me come so far.

Its still embarrassing to think being fat cost me a job, but I haven't given up this experience has made me eager to succeed. So fast forward to today 7 months on and 3 stone gone. 
It's not been easy and their have definitely been bumps in the road but it has been worth it. I can feel a major difference to how I felt just last year, I felt so sluggish and exhausted all the time, I could barely walk 50m and god everything hurt, my feet, ankles, back. god the back pain it used to make me cry so much I hated it. I am so glad I started this journey and apologise that its taken me so long to share it with you guys.
I'm looking for ward to get blogging more as I feel now I've got more energy and feel more positive I want to share more with you guys not just weight loss.

Tash x